Shocking News: Michelle Rodriguez felt ‘Jealousy’ after Paul Walker Death.

Michelle Rodriguez Opens Up About Feelings of “Jealousy” After Paul Walker’s Death in Raw Reflection on Grief

In a heartfelt conversation about loss and coping with grief, Fast and Furious star Michelle Rodriguez admitted she experienced feelings of “jealousy” following the tragic death of her co-star and friend, Paul Walker. Walker, who shared the screen with Rodriguez in the Fast and Furious franchise, passed away in 2013 at age 40 when the Porsche Carrera GT he was riding in struck a pole in California. The car, driven by his friend Roger Rodas, caught fire, resulting in both of their deaths. Walker left behind his teenage daughter, Meadow, who is now the sole heir to his estate.

In an interview for the documentary The Reality of Truth, Rodriguez spoke candidly about her emotional turmoil after Walker’s passing. She shared that, following his death, she struggled to cope and sought ways to numb herself from the pain. She revealed that this period of grief was transformative and, at times, overwhelming, as she turned to extreme ways to escape her own thoughts on mortality and the fleeting nature of life.

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“I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being like an animal,” Rodriguez recalled. “Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? To distract myself from how transient life is and how we can just come and go in an instant.” She described that time as a “crazy” summer where she tried every means possible to avoid confronting her grief.

Rodriguez explained that it was a powerful experience with ayahuasca, a plant-based psychedelic, that finally helped her process her emotions around Walker’s passing. She described a mix of sadness and envy, saying, “I’ll tell you that my Ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here. It wasn’t a sadness that he’s gone it’s more like a jealousy that he’s there first.” Her raw confession highlighted a unique angle of loss, one where the pain of separation was complicated by a sense of being left behind by someone she deeply admired and cared for.

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Rodriguez wasn’t alone in experiencing deep grief after Walker’s death. Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson, another of Walker’s Fast and Furious co-stars, has also spoken publicly about the profound impact it had on him, sharing how it exacerbated struggles with depression. “I didn’t want to do a thing,” Johnson admitted in a 2014 interview with The Hollywood Reporter. “I didn’t want to go anywhere. I was crying constantly. Eventually, you reach a point where you are all cried out. I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know why I didn’t want to do anything. I had never experienced anything like that.”

These moving testimonials from Rodriguez and Johnson reveal the depth of Walker’s impact on those closest to him. Their words underscore how the experience of loss can manifest in many complex ways, reshaping perspectives on life, death, and the bonds we hold dear.

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